I love-ed you...

Billy and I were standing in the pasta aisle of BJ's. He looked at me, put his arm out and pulled me closer to him and just held me, kissing my forehead.



Now, you have to really know Billy to understand why that is so sweet. Billy is hard to explain. He has the same face for every emotion...happy, sad, angry...you name it. We once bought him a shirt that had like 12 pictures of Darth Vader and across the top it said - The Faces of Vader. Under each picture was - Sad...Happy...Surprised....all the same picture. LOL! Totally Billy. But, Billy has a very soft side when it comes to me. He is the guy who doesn't dance but will put on an entire performance in the kitchen to "Take it Off" by Ke$ha just to keep me from crying when I had a horrible day at work. He is the guy that will drive around aimlessly at midnight even though he has to be up for work at 5 am because he knows I love our rides together. He is the guy that will get up with the baby at 2 am because he knows I am exhausted. He is "that guy".

The title of this post may not make sense to anyone but Billy and I. "I love-ed you" is something silly we say to each other when we really want the other person to know that we love them extra. I am not sure how it started. And it isn't pronounced loved...it's love-ED. Again...lol...don't ask!



He gives me something to smile about everyday...when I am not beyond pissed off at him. He has helped me through all of the hard times...when I'm not aggravating the shit out of him. Everyday is a new adventure with him...when we are actually talking to each other. LOL..no matter what life throws at us, I know that he will be right by my side, holding my hand the entire time...and I love him more than anything for that. Now, I have always known this, but for some reason, at this very moment in our lives, it is even more true.



This past December, we celebrated our 6th wedding anniversary. I think our relationship is best summed up by what I posted in facebook - 9 years ago, I said yes when this guy from NJ asked me out on a date. 7 years ago, I said yes when he got down on 1 knee, drunk, and asked me to marry him. 6 years ago, I said yes when I walked down the aisle and became his wife. And even though it hasn't been easy, there is nobody in the world who I would want walking beside me on this journey. There have always been ups but we have had a good share of downs....and he has held my hand or wiped my tears through them all. I love-ed you!



I love-ed you babe.....